Purpose and grief
It has been a year and 4 months since Micah died and I have been struggling with how to "get on with life." For a long time after Micah died I continued on with ministry, but did not have much passion for it. At times in the moment I could talk shop with other pastors or minister to others because I was supposed to, but most of the time I did not have a drive and a real care for or about others in the same way I used to have. It is not that I had a crisis of faith and stopped believing the things I once believed. On the contrary, my personal trust in God and confidence in the truth of the good news about Jesus has become even more sure through this time of sickness and grief. But in the past I felt a direct calling to share this good news and to care about people just like Jesus had. Since Micah's death the world simply seems a little darker and sadder and therefore I have less passion for it. In fact, whenever someone jokes about doing and going to heaven, a big part o...